MY AVATAR

Every day, I have to prepare myself for a war…unknowing of what will happen next. All I long is happiness. War is not an answer to it. If only I could wear a mithril martial suit that would increase my defense and strengthen my damage, then I could really tell myself that “I’m ready for a war.” I don’t have one… not even a ring of luck + 2. All I have is I. No allies. Certainly, I’m weak. Wish I could have more potions to increase my strength and dexterity. Hope I’m a warrior where its armor suit sets a high defense against its enemies and with high Health Points, he’s the last one to die in a battle. No fast kill from the bladders. No Astral Shield from an FS which provides me a greater defense. All I got is my magical damage. I may provide party buffs yet they’re useless when I’m alone. Only the rod which I’m holding on my left hand accompanies me. With my low defense, I’m the most vulnerable to attacks. No doubt I’m the first one that dies in the battle. My weapons are my three-slotted pherystin orbs of destruction. Sadly, their critical rate is only 3%. Why I chose them? Let say I was carried away by my emotional impulse of wanting to buy three-slotted orbs that very day. With these orbs, I can cast magical spells against enemies. I may have a destructive magic skill buff but it lasts only for 30 seconds. I may be weak yet there are five reasons why I like being a wiz. First, I can blink as fast as I could. I can teleport instantly to a safer place when my hp is low. Only that, I had a hard time looking for a safer place. Second, I like my arctic field magic attack skill. It stuns my enemies for five seconds. Third, I can create a mirror image through my space collapse magic attack skill. Fourth, I can restore SP which lasts for 30 seconds and I find it useful in dungeons and in war. Lastly, my character depicts my personality. Most of the time, I like to move around. I can’t stay in one place. I blink. I love travel and adventure. I am not intelligent but I like to seek knowledge and wisdom just like my pure int wiz. I see my life as a quest. For me, in every dark cloud of life, there’s always a sunny side of it. Yet, I tend to avoid difficult situations. Perhaps I’m afraid to risk my comfort zone. I let time to heal it believing that everything will turn out well someday. When I am in a cheerful mood, I like to be with others but when I’m sullen, I usually hide my self in a closet. I accept party invitation when I feel like I want too and decline it whenever I don’t want it. Often, I smile. Just like my char’s face, you can’t tell if it’s happy or sad. I share my blessings. I easily give my alz away. Yes, I am generous to a fault that I’m willing to spend my last money just to help someone. I’m affectionate. I let myself be carried by my feelings. Thus, I’m willing to make a trade even if my mind is telling me not to do so. When I’m in a worst situation like more than two mobs in PF, I easily panic.

My character has thought me a lot. It encourages me to take those opportunities, to live life as an adventure and to believe in something greater than myself.

Certainly, I see myself to it. It’s my avatar and whenever I miss it, then I’ll just go to Jupiter.